Made’s Blog

May is the fifth month of the year. When I was still in school, it was this month which I usually studied hardest. It was time for the final exam; be it going to the next grade or graduation.

It’s been almost 2 years since I graduated from univ. In may 2005, I think I was struggling with my final year project. Report writing, paper submission. On top of that, I was busy sending out my resume looking for a job. And it won’t complete without me saying that I received rejections more than receptions.With my extra experience in AIESEC and leadership position in some organizations, I thought I was well armed. But I was wrong. Unless the resume was very exceptional, what the potential employers wanted to see in it was grade; words like First class honours and such. And I’d say that NTU grading system was bullshit, a total bollock.

In may 2006, I was busy socializing. Partying and such. Live like there’s no tomorrow.
May 2007 has been a rugged ride. I started to think about what I want to do, how I should handle things, and such. I started to feel that I am responsible with my own actions. Higher self awareness if I can rephrase it. Hmm… maybe that sounds mundane, but hey… I’ve just got an enlightenment. Thinking about how I can cut the distance, my romance, careers, how I would want to go for a master degree.

I like what Eben Moglen words about how to change the world. There are two things to change the world according to him:

• Know exactly what you want
• Know exactly how to get it

According to John Nash, “An individual’s action depends on what is best for the group and what is best for himself”. I don’t want to change the world yet, so I’ll just change myself first.

Can’t believe it that google has interests in me.

I simply couldn’t sleep at 4am in the morning. I flipped trough a couple of people’s blog and I was touched by an entry in dey’s blog which is a poem extracted from Heinz Shalloff: (more…)

Bali is magic… I love that island. On my last trip there, my head was full of questions and thoughts, and that’s why I was mentally ‘tortured’ for 2 hours in the plane while sitting and doing nothing. When one does nothing (no physical activity), one’s mind is actually busy. Very very busy. One thought will enter one’s mind, one after another. And the scariest thing about our thought is that, it doesn’t recognize the law of time and space. Sometimes we can think we are in Tokyo buying a chocolate bar. That chocolate bar reminds us of a certain romantic event. Then in a split of second we are thinking about giving a chocolate to our first crush.

That was what happened to me for 2 hours, inside Airbus crossing Indonesia’s islands. No in-flight entertainment, no one to talk to, no pretty air steward to chat with… so I was by myself. My mind kept asking questions which I couldn’t answer. Constantly battling. When an answer comes, another answer will pop up instantly which will negate the previous thought.

But…. few minutes before landing in Bali, voila… I’ve got the thought which was satisfying. The island is magic. No wonder the island is called, the island of Gods, or an island of a thousand temples.

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I promised to marielle that I’m gonna write something about, Singapore as a handbag society, which the status of a woman can be valued from the handbag she posses. I know naught about handbag, so I need to do a little bit of research before I can write about that.

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Indogroove would be launched, but not so soon yet. I’ve got to find time to do that, otherwise I would procrastinate again and again. Before I know… suddenly peuffff… gone is the opportunity

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I’ve got dental braces and I’ll buy a book: How to Kiss with Braces. Not only that I will read that book, but also I have to start practicing it.

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Oh… OSIM triathlon. Will I die while running or swimming during the competition? If yes, then I would have to start my training sessions from this week.

Due to popular demand, here I present my theory that I said earlier on. Let me start by raising a question. Why do a person need a partner, or a life partner to be specific? Or if I can, I would like to rephrase it to be, why a marriage is so important for a person? (more…)

I’m flying to Bali today. My sister is couple of months pregnant, and my parents… I want to see them. To talk to my mother. (more…)

I drank too much, don’t have a clear mind now, but I still want to write.
I don’t care about anyone, I’m gonna talk about myself. After all, myself is more im“portant than others. One of the reasons is because I’m gonna leave the life myself, and it would be important for me to have what I want to have.

Give me a clear mind, make me an individualistic, that’s my current wish. I’ve been good enough to be the follower of socialist paradigm, at least for a couple of years. That’s the result of my education in high school.

My good friend, chatrin, used to say that your relationship with others is like a ship. And in the ship, there can only one captain to decide the direction of the ship. The co-captain will provide insights.

Is this about karma?

The good man would say,  “do your best, and let God do the rest”. I would say, “do your best to yourself, and the future will handle itself”.

I just checked the statistics of my domain. I found this piece of statistics:

The Search Query Report shows the queries that your sites visitors have sent to search engines to find your site. This only lists queries for search engines that have been defined and that provide this information in their referrer data. This report is useful in determining what keyword and which search engines refer visitors to your site. (more…)

I posted a comment to respond Sutono’s post. He mentions his opinion about world’s economics vs the earth. And in the end, he posted simple questions:

Then the question, how long can the world economy keep growing? Or in other words, when will our earth fail to feed us?

Hardono mentions a thing about ethanol to replace fossil fuels. So I came out with my opinion which is a respond to Sutono and Hardono’s:

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My boss is one of a kind. He gives me plenty of things to learn and I am looking up on him. Wise men said, there will always be a day for a man to move on to pursue his dream. I informed my boss, that my time has come.

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