May is the fifth month of the year. When I was still in school, it was this month which I usually studied hardest. It was time for the final exam; be it going to the next grade or graduation.
It’s been almost 2 years since I graduated from univ. In may 2005, I think I was struggling with my final year project. Report writing, paper submission. On top of that, I was busy sending out my resume looking for a job. And it won’t complete without me saying that I received rejections more than receptions.With my extra experience in AIESEC and leadership position in some organizations, I thought I was well armed. But I was wrong. Unless the resume was very exceptional, what the potential employers wanted to see in it was grade; words like First class honours and such. And I’d say that NTU grading system was bullshit, a total bollock.
In may 2006, I was busy socializing. Partying and such. Live like there’s no tomorrow.
May 2007 has been a rugged ride. I started to think about what I want to do, how I should handle things, and such. I started to feel that I am responsible with my own actions. Higher self awareness if I can rephrase it. Hmm… maybe that sounds mundane, but hey… I’ve just got an enlightenment. Thinking about how I can cut the distance, my romance, careers, how I would want to go for a master degree.
I like what Eben Moglen words about how to change the world. There are two things to change the world according to him:
- Know exactly what you want
- Know exactly how to get it
According to John Nash, “An individual’s action depends on what is best for the group and what is best for himself”. I don’t want to change the world yet, so I’ll just change myself first.