Made’s Blog

Can’t believe it that google has interests in me.

I simply couldn’t sleep at 4am in the morning. I flipped trough a couple of people’s blog and I was touched by an entry in dey’s blog which is a poem extracted from Heinz Shalloff: (more…)

Bali is magic… I love that island. On my last trip there, my head was full of questions and thoughts, and that’s why I was mentally ‘tortured’ for 2 hours in the plane while sitting and doing nothing. When one does nothing (no physical activity), one’s mind is actually busy. Very very busy. One thought will enter one’s mind, one after another. And the scariest thing about our thought is that, it doesn’t recognize the law of time and space. Sometimes we can think we are in Tokyo buying a chocolate bar. That chocolate bar reminds us of a certain romantic event. Then in a split of second we are thinking about giving a chocolate to our first crush.

That was what happened to me for 2 hours, inside Airbus crossing Indonesia’s islands. No in-flight entertainment, no one to talk to, no pretty air steward to chat with… so I was by myself. My mind kept asking questions which I couldn’t answer. Constantly battling. When an answer comes, another answer will pop up instantly which will negate the previous thought.

But…. few minutes before landing in Bali, voila… I’ve got the thought which was satisfying. The island is magic. No wonder the island is called, the island of Gods, or an island of a thousand temples.

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I promised to marielle that I’m gonna write something about, Singapore as a handbag society, which the status of a woman can be valued from the handbag she posses. I know naught about handbag, so I need to do a little bit of research before I can write about that.

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Indogroove would be launched, but not so soon yet. I’ve got to find time to do that, otherwise I would procrastinate again and again. Before I know… suddenly peuffff… gone is the opportunity

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I’ve got dental braces and I’ll buy a book: How to Kiss with Braces. Not only that I will read that book, but also I have to start practicing it.

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Oh… OSIM triathlon. Will I die while running or swimming during the competition? If yes, then I would have to start my training sessions from this week.

Due to popular demand, here I present my theory that I said earlier on. Let me start by raising a question. Why do a person need a partner, or a life partner to be specific? Or if I can, I would like to rephrase it to be, why a marriage is so important for a person? (more…)

I’m flying to Bali today. My sister is couple of months pregnant, and my parents… I want to see them. To talk to my mother. (more…)

I drank too much, don’t have a clear mind now, but I still want to write.
I don’t care about anyone, I’m gonna talk about myself. After all, myself is more im“portant than others. One of the reasons is because I’m gonna leave the life myself, and it would be important for me to have what I want to have.

Give me a clear mind, make me an individualistic, that’s my current wish. I’ve been good enough to be the follower of socialist paradigm, at least for a couple of years. That’s the result of my education in high school.

My good friend, chatrin, used to say that your relationship with others is like a ship. And in the ship, there can only one captain to decide the direction of the ship. The co-captain will provide insights.

Is this about karma?

The good man would say,  “do your best, and let God do the rest”. I would say, “do your best to yourself, and the future will handle itself”.

This video is banned in Singapore

At 1.40 am, I can’t sleep. My mind is troubled now, and one ways for me to clear it is by writing. To describe it in words, there are plenty of things happening in my brain, and I can only process one thing at a time. Sometimes there’s only one thought, but this thought is like a jumbled story, the beginning and the end are not clear. How can I make a perfect story without sorting the beginning and the end first.

Heck, for 22 years living in this world, I have learned lessons, and more often than not, I learned it the hard way. The worst part of learning a new experience is the process to learn it. But after the experience is gained, it would be much better. I can even laugh about what happened in the past, and state to others that what happened to me in the past was just a glitch in my life story.

Sometimes I wonder, if I can get everything in this life. Currently, my ‘everything’ is defined into careers, family which are my parents, circle of friends, and romantic relationship. Tell me I am greedy, but somehow I think I can manage to get this everything.

I believe in the concept of Karma and Reincarnation. Life in this earthly world is a suffering. The existence of human in this world is to learn things so that its soul can unify with the universe (God) and to escape from this earthly world. If a soul is imperfect, then it would reincarnate again to finish its mission to be perfect, and its current existence in this earthly world is affected by the previous lives (karma).

That’s how I explain things which happen to me, karma and reincarnation. Things happen because of my karma, things don’t happen because of that as well. I would learn from it, and I know what I learn now won’t end up in cemetery. Because I will reincarnate again if there is any unfinished lessons I need to learn again.